I Need You Lord

Lord I need you

While I’m encouraging others I need encouragement from you. I need strength. This year is hard for me. Now I understand why you have me sitting. I have been moving and not dealing with my emotions about my mother and Sidney. I was trying to stay moving no stop. Working overtime and staying active in church not to deal with them departing from this earth. Truth is I never wanted to feel this pain. It hurts Lord! It hurts! It hurts! Thank you for the grace. Your grace is truly sufficient. Sharing my testimony helps. However, I truly have to deal with truth. My son Sidney was murdered and my mother was hopeless in pain and ready to die. I was angry at my mom for leaving us and giving up. But, now I realize I had no idea how much pain she was truly in. Reading her journal I found out she couldn’t accept Sidney had died. Lord help me. 

Acts 5:1-42

But a certain man named Ananias, with Sapphira his wife, sold a possession, And kept back part of the price, his wife also being privy to it, and brought a certain part, and laid it at the apostles’ feet. But Peter said, Ananias, why hath Satan filled thine heart to lie to the Holy Ghost, and to keep back part of the price of the land? Whiles it remained, was it not thine own? and after it was sold, was it not in thine own power? why hast thou conceived this thing in thine heart? thou hast not lied unto men, but unto God. And Ananias hearing these words fell down, and gave up the ghost: and great fear came on all them that heard these things. And the young men arose, wound him up, and carried him out, and buried him. And it was about the space of three hours after, when his wife, not knowing what was done, came in. And Peter answered unto her, Tell me whether ye sold the land for so much? And she said, Yea, for so much. Then Peter said unto her, How is it that ye have agreed together to tempt the Spirit of the Lord? behold, the feet of them which have buried thy husband are at the door, and shall carry thee out. Then fell she down straightway at his feet, and yielded up the ghost: and the young men came in, and found her dead, and, carrying her forth, buried her by her husband. And great fear came upon all the church, and upon as many as heard these things. And by the hands of the apostles were many signs and wonders wrought among the people; (and they were all with one accord in Solomon’s porch. And of the rest durst no man join himself to them: but the people magnified them. And believers were the more added to the Lord, multitudes both of men and women.) Insomuch that they brought forth the sick into the streets, and laid them on beds and couches, that at the least the shadow of Peter passing by might overshadow some of them. There came also a multitude out of the cities round about unto Jerusalem, bringing sick folks, and them which were vexed with unclean spirits: and they were healed every one. Then the high priest rose up, and all they that were with him, (which is the sect of the Sadducees,) and were filled with indignation, And laid their hands on the apostles, and put them in the common prison. But the angel of the Lord by night opened the prison doors, and brought them forth, and said, Go, stand and speak in the temple to the people all the words of this life. And when they heard that, they entered into the temple early in the morning, and taught. But the high priest came, and they that were with him, and called the council together, and all the senate of the children of Israel, and sent to the prison to have them brought. But when the officers came, and found them not in the prison, they returned, and told, Saying, The prison truly found we shut with all safety, and the keepers standing without before the doors: but when we had opened, we found no man within. Now when the high priest and the captain of the temple and the chief priests heard these things, they doubted of them whereunto this would grow. Then came one and told them, saying, Behold, the men whom ye put in prison are standing in the temple, and teaching the people. Then went the captain with the officers, and brought them without violence: for they feared the people, lest they should have been stoned. And when they had brought them, they set them before the council: and the high priest asked them, Saying, Did not we straitly command you that ye should not teach in this name? and, behold, ye have filled Jerusalem with your doctrine, and intend to bring this man’s blood upon us. Then Peter and the other apostles answered and said, We ought to obey God rather than men. The God of our fathers raised up Jesus, whom ye slew and hanged on a tree. Him hath God exalted with his right hand to be a Prince and a Saviour, for to give repentance to Israel, and forgiveness of sins. And we are his witnesses of these things; and so is also the Holy Ghost, whom God hath given to them that obey him. When they heard that, they were cut to the heart, and took counsel to slay them. Then stood there up one in the council, a Pharisee, named Gamaliel, a doctor of the law, had in reputation among all the people, and commanded to put the apostles forth a little space; And said unto them, Ye men of Israel, take heed to yourselves what ye intend to do as touching these men. For before these days rose up Theudas, boasting himself to be somebody; to whom a number of men, about four hundred, joined themselves: who was slain; and all, as many as obeyed him, were scattered, and brought to nought. After this man rose up Judas of Galilee in the days of the taxing, and drew away much people after him: he also perished; and all, even as many as obeyed him, were dispersed. And now I say unto you, Refrain from these men, and let them alone: for if this counsel or this work be of men, it will come to nought: But if it be of God, ye cannot overthrow it; lest haply ye be found even to fight against God. And to him they agreed: and when they had called the apostles, and beaten them, they commanded that they should not speak in the name of Jesus, and let them go. And they departed from the presence of the council, rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer shame for his name. And daily in the temple, and in every house, they ceased not to teach and preach Jesus Christ.
Acts 5:1‭-‬42 KJV
https://bible.com/bible/1/act.5.1-42.KJV

We need you Jesus

Lord Jesus,

Please be a France around the city of Knoxville especially East Knoxville. The racial unrest is very real and tensions are rising but you are God! I know these things have to happen to open the eyes of your people. I will continue to watch and pray, which is hard to do being a black woman of God who has lost a son to gun violence. I cannot fathom what Anthony Thompson Jr’s family is experienced considering their son was murdered inside Austin East Magnet High School by the police. It’s heartbreaking and the family deserve some clarity and some type of peace. My Lord!

As a mother who’s death was on a tape I was never able to see, yet the police and people in the community saw it. I feel Anthony Thompson Jr’s family. Without seeing the video their are many unanswered questions. My situation with Little Sidney being murdered has no comparison to Anthony Thompson Jr’s horrific murder. You send your child to school to learn and he was gunned down by police. No matter what no one knows what truly happened without the video footage. Right now everything is hearsay and I don’t trust it and I’m sure his family doesn’t either.

We’ve got to learn in order to get anything done with the Police, we must remain calm. Yelling at the police and violence only upset the police and cause more people to get hurt. It does not help the situation it adds more hostility. When will we learn that understanding is better than strife? My Lord! I understand the anger I do, but there is a time and place for everything. We must be able to discern the times. We should have enough common sense to know that the DA’s office will not let go of the tapes until they are able to watch them thoroughly. I mean common sense tells me this. No matter how mad I am, I know the law. There are rules and regulations that have to be followed and unfortunately those officers did not follow the rules. But that is not the DA’s fault. The officers should have called a negotiator for God’s sake. There were four office to one I sure very terrified teen, who knew he was probably going to die because these police keep killing unarmed black men. My God, I know that child was terrified and they didn’t even get help for that child and that is unacceptable behavior. That seventeen year old child Anthony Thompson Jr should still be alive today and this is the truth. Help us Lord. We need you.

Love Always,

Your daughter Rosina

My quiet time with God

My God! He speaks to me!

It truly amazes me how the Spirit of the Lord speaks to me during my quiet time bathing 🧼 or showering 🚿.(water flowing)

So, the Spirit of the Lord just revealed a very true and good secret to me. I have attended 3 different Bible Colleges in the past 5 years. Now, read this carefully……

Each time I attended a college I was led by the spirit of God however, the pastoral recommendations were for the pastor’s own personal gain.. My God from Zion hep me….

You see, I believe that the Lord will show his prophets secrets about you that He the Lord hasn’t stirred up in you fully. They can see (seers) something you cannot see until it fully manifest. My Lord help me…..

They could see that I am anointed and chosen by God. I could see that the Holy Ghost leads me and I am a truth seeker period point blank. I am not and never have been swayed by the opinions of others.(Not even family members)

They could see that the Spirit of the Lord would show me things they could not see. The Spirit of the Lord would reveal great mysteries to me that would help their ministries. That the reason my emails and phones were hacked so they could hear my private dialogue with my Heavenly Father and then preach sermons from my private time with ABBA Father. My Lord help me….

During the classes after reading the assignments and answering the questions: I noticed that my answers were always more in depth than others, and that was because it came from the revelation knowledge from God the father; not just the Bible I was reading regardless of what version I was reading at the time. My God from Zion help me….

When I was 8 years old my dad taught me many things starting with chores. Cooking and cleaning; paying close attention to details, obeying, being quiet and listening especially because I am to be a wife someday. (STRUCTURE) by the way he was a single father at the time. Thank you Jesus for my earthly father! Hallelujah

My dad also taught me to always read and be ready. He has me reading his college history, economics and science books.(Real Life) So, during the summer time when I would visit him in St. Louis I was still in school. I was in school year around because my dad taught me we are nothing without an education(.) All my life I have been stuck on growing in knowledge and I genuinely love to learn. And once I have learned everything a teacher or preacher can teach me the Lord moves me period point blank. I am more advanced than some but it’s because of my African roots I was taught to read and study regardless of I was attending school or not. Thank you Jesus!

Now, understand that I am very spiritually mature and have many spiritual gifts and I thank God for the spiritual gift of discernment. I love everyone but there are some people with the spirit of pride that I cannot tolerate. I love you but I don’t like your character(.) There are some things I need to improve and so do you. None of us are at a highest potential and never will be until we graduate to heaven and some of you church goers will not be entering into the kingdom of heaven(.)

We need to thank you for His grace and mercy that renews everyday and stop being habitual complainers. God does not want to constantly here your complaints. He wants to know what is your strategy to make things better and for you to allow him to guide you through the process. Everything has a process and for those of you who skipped you maturing process because of connections it shows(.)

Do not shoot the messenger receive the message.

It is well with my soul
Love Always Rosina Akinola