Author: SOFI

March 17, 2016

There is something that has been weighing VERY HEAVY ON MY HEART THESE PAST FOUR MONTHS….. I HAD NEVER SEEN THIS UNTIL FIVE MONTHS AGO… I’VE GOT A QUESTION TO ASK OR THIS CAN JUST BE A QUESTION YOU ASK YOURSELF IF YOU HAVEN’T ALREADY.. MAYBE I JUST NEVER REALIZED THIS UNTIL IT BECAME UP CLOSE AND VERY PERSONAL…. WHICH, isn’t unusual at all I many different cases… Now it’s My Oldest Son Sidney Jackson Jr… However,  When is ONE LIFE more Precious or IMPORTANT than OTHERS?? The loss of a Child or Children; is a VERY TRAGIC LOSS REGARDLESS OF THE CAUSE. The only DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO IS ONE loss you are SOMEWHAT PREPARED FOR and an instantaneous loss UNEXPECTED LOSS.. EITHER WAY ITS A LOSS NO MOTHER SHOULD EVER HAVE TO BARE. No MOTHER SHOULD EVER HAVE TO BURY A CHILD AND IN SOME CASES CHILDREN!!! THE WORST PART I HAVE NOTICED ABOUT IT ALL, IS THAT NO ONE THINKS ABOUT OUR CHILDREN OR YOUTH.. THEY MAKE IT ALL ABOUT THE MOTHERS WHILE OUR CHILDREN ATE DYING INSIDE FROM LOSING SIBLINGS, FAMILY MEMBERS AND CLOSE FRIENDS. THEY ARE SUFFERING FROM “SEVER DEPRESSION” SOMETHING WE AS PARENTS ( ADULTS) CAN PREVENT BUT MOST OF ALL GET OUR YOUTH HELP WITH!! ITS TIME TO STOP IGNORING THIS AND THINKING OF LABELS SUCH AS  ” CRAZY!!”  A CHILD OR ADULT IS CONSIDERED CRAZY TO IGNORANT PEOPLE! A PARENT OR ADULT WHO DOESN’T GET THEMSELVES OR THEIR CHILD/CHILDREN IN MY CASE ARE WHO I CONSIDER CRAZY. WHY IN THE WORLD ARE SOME OF YOU PEOPLE WORRIED ABOUT THE WORD CRAZY?? IF WE ALL WERE DOING OUR JOBS AS RESPONSIBLE  PARENTS OR ADULTS…. THE WORLD WOULD NOT HAVE BECOME SUCH A “CRAZY PLACE!” Yeah NO ONE THINKS ABOUT THAT TINY ( LARGE !) FACT OF LIFE. MENTAL ILLNESS CAN BE TREATED BUT NOT CURED.. AND UNFORTUNATELY FOR THE PEOPLE.. LET ME CLARIFY.. SOME PEOPLE (MOSTLY ADULTS ) WHO ARE  MEDICATING THEMSELVES NOT KNOWING WHAT THEY ARE PUTTING INTO THEIR BODIES NOR THE SIDE EFFECTS OF THE ( PILLS) ILLEGAL IF NOT PRESCRIBED!! WHICH ALSO MEANS THEY DO NOT HAVE ANY CLUE ON HOW EASILY IT IS TO OVERDOSE… ESPECIALLY WITH ALCOHOL AND OTHER SUCH DRUGS AS MARIJUANA, HEROIN, METH, CRACK COCAINE AND ECT. IT WILL AND CAN HAPPEN WITHOUT ANY WARNINGS. YOU WILL DOZE OFF AND NEVER WAKE UP!! SOME PEOPLE DO THIS IN FRONT OF THEIR CHILDREN WHICH GIVES THEM THE IDEA AS IF THATS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. YOU ALL JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND DRUS AND PILLS THAT ARE NOT PRESCRIBED FOR A REAL ILLNESS YOU ARE SUFFERING FROM MAY NOT EFFECT YOU AS IT DOES THE PERSON IT’S PRESCRIBED FOR..  THE POINT OF THEM BEING PRESCRIBED AND  IM GOING TO GIVE YOU ALL A PERFECT EXAMPLE.. The DRUG THAT COMES IN A TABLET FORM WITH MANY DIFFERENT MGS AND COLORS THAT MAY ALSO TRULY BE A “BLOOD PRESSURE” PILL IF THE COLOR IS BLUE!!!! NAMED XANAX…….. YES I SAID IT.. TYPED IT.. AND MOST DEFINITELY ( MENTIONED ) IT!! DO YOU KNOW THAT PILL IS FOR ANXIETY, PANAC ATTACKS, SOCIAL ANXIETY( Large groups of people) AND IRRITABILITY …  THE PILL IS PRESCRIBED FOR THESE PROBLEMS IN WHICH THE REASON FOR ITS PURPOSE IS TO CALM YOU OR KEEP YOU CALM…. BUT FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO CHOOSES THIS CHOICE OF DRUG FOR RECREATIONAL USE ( TO GET HIGH) IT CAN HAVE THE OPPOSITE EFFECT AND MAKE YOU VERY IRRITABLE AND QUICK TO SNAP ON A PERSON. ANYBODY, Your MOTHER, SISTER, FATHER BROTHER, GRANDMOTHER, COUSINS ,NIECES, NEPHEWS, AUNTS AND UNCLES… BOY FRIENDS GIRLFRIENDS, CO-WORKERS AND BOSSES YOU NAME THE INDIVIDUAL YOU’LL SNAP ON THEM… THAT’S ONE LARGE AND VERY IMPORTANT FACT MANY OF YOU DID NOT KNOW UNTIL NOW.. SO FOR FUTURE REFERENCE IF AN INDIVIDUAL IS PRESCRIBED THIS DRUG AND DOES NOT ABUSE IT JUST AS ANY OTHER MEDICATION YOU ARE NOT ON XANAX OR HYDROS….. DO YOU HOMEWORK…… I AM VERY ALLERGIC TO IGNORANCE… SO WE NEED TO STOP ASKING OURSELVES AND OTHERS, ” WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH THESE TEENS??????  AND ADULTS…. WHEN YOU KNOW THE UGLY TRUTH… THATS THE PROBLEM WITH THIS WORLD NOW WE IGNORE REAL LIFE IMPORTANT ISSUES AND WORRY ABOUT LIES, WHAT THE NEXT PERSON HAS. HOW MUCH MONEY SOMEONE HAS AND HOW THEY SPEND IT.. IGNORING THE FACT YOU MAY SPEND EVERY SINGLE PENNY YOU GET YOUR HANDS ON…… YES DRUGS AND ALCOHOL.. WHY?? BECAUSE ITS YOUR MONEY RIGHT? 

NOW JUST INCASE YOU DID NOT NOTICE…. SOME OF YOU JUST READ THIS AND WATCHED THE VIDEO BECAUSE YOU TRULY CARE…. YET THE OTHER 98% READ THIS AND WATCHED THE VIDEO UNTIL THE END TO BE NOSEY. 

Anyway, I WANT TO THANK ALL OF YOU FOR YOU UNDIVIDED ATTENTION FOR MY VIDEO THAT I HAVEN’T STARTED RECORDING YET. I KNOW RIGHT NOW AT THIS VERY MOMENT THE 98% OF YOU WHO JUST TOOK OUT THE TIME TO READ ALL OF THIS ARE VERY UPSET I JUST MADE A VERY VALID POINT…. PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT WHAT THE NEXT PERSON IS DOING.. SO THERES NO REASON TO STOP READING NOW THERES MORE…LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE TO THIS!! YOU JUST RECEIVED A VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE TODAY…. STOP JUDGING PEOPLE AND STARTING RUMORS, WORRY ABOUT THE REAL LIFE PROBLEMS WE ARE FACING.. THE COMMERCIAL WORLD WE LIVE IN… MENTAL ILLNESS….EVERY TIME A MASCARA HAPPENS, IT LEADS BACK TO THE PERSON SUFFERING FROM A MENTAL ILLNESS NO ONE KNEW ABOUT EXCEPT THE INDIVIDUAL AND HIS/HER PARENTS.. CHECK SOCIAL MEDIA TO WATCH OUR CHILDREN NOT THE NEXT PERSON. Worried about HOW He/SHE IS SPENDING HIS MONEY…. STOP JUDGING A BOOK BY ITS COVER OR HOW SOMEONE HAS TOLD WHAT ITS ABOUT…100% of the TIME YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT A PERSON IS GOING THROUGH OR HAVE GONE THROUGH. Oh yeah OUR CHILDREN ARE CRYING OUT FOR HELP!!!!! STOP TALKING ACTIONS ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. 

I HOPE EVERYONE CONTINUES TO ENJOY THIS BEAUTIFUL DAY THE LORD HAS MADE

https://www.facebook.com/abiolarosinaakinola/videos/1026184147454054/?d=n

“Again a message came to me from the Lord: “Son of man, you live among rebels who have eyes but refuse to see. They have ears but refuse to hear. For they are a rebellious people. “So now, son of man, pretend you are being sent into exile. Pack the few items an exile could carry, and leave your home to go somewhere else. Do this right in front of the people so they can see you. For perhaps they will pay attention to this, even though they are such rebels. Bring your baggage outside during the day so they can watch you. Then in the evening, as they are watching, leave your house as captives do when they begin a long march to distant lands. Dig a hole through the wall while they are watching and go out through it. As they watch, lift your pack to your shoulders and walk away into the night. Cover your face so you cannot see the land you are leaving. For I have made you a sign for the people of Israel.” So I did as I was told. In broad daylight I brought my pack outside, filled with the things I might carry into exile. Then in the evening while the people looked on, I dug through the wall with my hands and went out into the night with my pack on my shoulder. The next morning this message came to me from the Lord: “Son of man, these rebels, the people of Israel, have asked you what all this means. Say to them, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: These actions contain a message for King Zedekiah in Jerusalem and for all the people of Israel.’ Explain that your actions are a sign to show what will soon happen to them, for they will be driven into exile as captives. “Even Zedekiah will leave Jerusalem at night through a hole in the wall, taking only what he can carry with him. He will cover his face, and his eyes will not see the land he is leaving. Then I will throw my net over him and capture him in my snare. I will bring him to Babylon, the land of the Babylonians, though he will never see it, and he will die there. I will scatter his servants and warriors to the four winds and send the sword after them. And when I scatter them among the nations, they will know that I am the Lord. But I will spare a few of them from death by war, famine, or disease, so they can confess all their detestable sins to their captors. Then they will know that I am the Lord.”

“Son of man, tremble as you eat your food. Shake with fear as you drink your water. Tell the people, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says concerning those living in Israel and Jerusalem: They will eat their food with trembling and sip their water in despair, for their land will be stripped bare because of their violence. The cities will be destroyed and the farmland made desolate. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’” Again a message came to me from the Lord: “Son of man, you’ve heard that proverb they quote in Israel: ‘Time passes, and prophecies come to nothing.’ Tell the people, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: I will put an end to this proverb, and you will soon stop quoting it.’ Now give them this new proverb to replace the old one: ‘The time has come for every prophecy to be fulfilled!’ “There will be no more false visions and flattering predictions in Israel. For I am the Lord! If I say it, it will happen. There will be no more delays, you rebels of Israel. I will fulfill my threat of destruction in your own lifetime. I, the Sovereign Lord, have spoken!” Then this message came to me from the Lord: “Son of man, the people of Israel are saying, ‘He’s talking about the distant future. His visions won’t come true for a long, long time.’ Therefore, tell them, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: No more delay! I will now do everything I have threatened. I, the Sovereign Lord, have spoken!’””
‭‭Ezekiel‬ ‭12:1-16, 18-28‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://www.bible.com/116/ezk.12.1-16,18-28.nlt

“Then the Spirit lifted me and brought me to the east gateway of the Lord’s Temple, where I saw twenty-five prominent men of the city. Among them were Jaazaniah son of Azzur and Pelatiah son of Benaiah, who were leaders among the people. The Spirit said to me, “Son of man, these are the men who are planning evil and giving wicked counsel in this city. They say to the people, ‘Is it not a good time to build houses? This city is like an iron pot. We are safe inside it like meat in a pot. ’ Therefore, son of man, prophesy against them loudly and clearly.” Then the Spirit of the Lord came upon me, and he told me to say, “This is what the Lord says to the people of Israel: I know what you are saying, for I know every thought that comes into your minds. You have murdered many in this city and filled its streets with the dead. “Therefore, this is what the Sovereign Lord says: This city is an iron pot all right, but the pieces of meat are the victims of your injustice. As for you, I will soon drag you from this pot. I will bring on you the sword of war you so greatly fear, says the Sovereign Lord. I will drive you out of Jerusalem and hand you over to foreigners, who will carry out my judgments against you. You will be slaughtered all the way to the borders of Israel. I will execute judgment on you, and you will know that I am the Lord. No, this city will not be an iron pot for you, and you will not be like meat safe inside it. I will judge you even to the borders of Israel, and you will know that I am the Lord. For you have refused to obey my decrees and regulations; instead, you have copied the standards of the nations around you.” While I was still prophesying, Pelatiah son of Benaiah suddenly died. Then I fell face down on the ground and cried out, “O Sovereign Lord, are you going to kill everyone in Israel?” Then this message came to me from the Lord: “Son of man, the people still left in Jerusalem are talking about you and your relatives and all the people of Israel who are in exile. They are saying, ‘Those people are far away from the Lord, so now he has given their land to us!’ “Therefore, tell the exiles, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Although I have scattered you in the countries of the world, I will be a sanctuary to you during your time in exile. I, the Sovereign Lord, will gather you back from the nations where you have been scattered, and I will give you the land of Israel once again.’ “When the people return to their homeland, they will remove every trace of their vile images and detestable idols. And I will give them singleness of heart and put a new spirit within them. I will take away their stony, stubborn heart and give them a tender, responsive heart, so they will obey my decrees and regulations. Then they will truly be my people, and I will be their God. But as for those who long for vile images and detestable idols, I will repay them fully for their sins. I, the Sovereign Lord, have spoken!” Then the cherubim lifted their wings and rose into the air with their wheels beside them, and the glory of the God of Israel hovered above them. Then the glory of the Lord went up from the city and stopped above the mountain to the east. Afterward the Spirit of God carried me back again to Babylonia, to the people in exile there. And so ended the vision of my visit to Jerusalem. And I told the exiles everything the Lord had shown me.”
‭‭Ezekiel‬ ‭11:1-25‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://www.bible.com/116/ezk.11.1-25.nlt

“Then the Lord thundered, “Bring on the men appointed to punish the city! Tell them to bring their weapons with them!” Six men soon appeared from the upper gate that faces north, each carrying a deadly weapon in his hand. With them was a man dressed in linen, who carried a writer’s case at his side. They all went into the Temple courtyard and stood beside the bronze altar. Then the glory of the God of Israel rose up from between the cherubim, where it had rested, and moved to the entrance of the Temple. And the Lord called to the man dressed in linen who was carrying the writer’s case. He said to him, “Walk through the streets of Jerusalem and put a mark on the foreheads of all who weep and sigh because of the detestable sins being committed in their city.” Then I heard the Lord say to the other men, “Follow him through the city and kill everyone whose forehead is not marked. Show no mercy; have no pity! Kill them all—old and young, girls and women and little children. But do not touch anyone with the mark. Begin right here at the Temple.” So they began by killing the seventy leaders. “Defile the Temple!” the Lord commanded. “Fill its courtyards with corpses. Go!” So they went and began killing throughout the city. While they were out killing, I was all alone. I fell face down on the ground and cried out, “O Sovereign Lord! Will your fury against Jerusalem wipe out everyone left in Israel?” Then he said to me, “The sins of the people of Israel and Judah are very, very great. The entire land is full of murder; the city is filled with injustice. They are saying, ‘The Lord doesn’t see it! The Lord has abandoned the land!’ So I will not spare them or have any pity on them. I will fully repay them for all they have done.” Then the man in linen clothing, who carried the writer’s case, reported back and said, “I have done as you commanded.””
‭‭Ezekiel‬ ‭9:1-11‬ ‭NLT‬‬
https://www.bible.com/116/ezk.9.1-11.nlt

My journey back to my first love Jesus Christ became public when my oldest son Sidney Maurice Jackson Jr @iamking.sj was brutally murdered at the age of 19 by a 16 year old black male. I will never forgive the day my family’s life was turned upside down. Now, I can see clearly that it was for the better how tragic it may seem to others. I was on my way straight to hell and my family would have been on their way there as well. Lord knows I miss my son but the truth is if he was still living I would have never changed. As I child I went through terrible trauma and my mom sent me to church and I met Jesus. Throughout my childhood I dealt with trauma from rap and molestation from men who were supposed to protect me. Which resulted in me having a sec addition that the Lord has delivered me from. Thank you Jesus. Then as an adult date rap which took me back to child hood memories and 15 years of severe depression and anxiety and three suicide attempts. Along with overcoming domestic violence. All because men took my kindness for weakness and wanted to control me. I was hopeless and depressed living on darkness. But God! Now I can see the light in the midst of it all. I’m just a nobody trying to tell somebody about my the God who saved me from hell🔥.

I never thought I would ever bury a child until I buried my son Sidney Maurice Jackson Jr. Understand that no one is exempt to burying a child. Stop judging people who have buried children because you just might be the next mom making funeral arrangements. Do think for one minute the Lord will continue to allow you to pass judgements about a situation you have never experienced. Keep passing judgements and you will be the next mother or father crying wanting answers about your son or daughter unsolved murder like many other parents here in Knoxville Tennessee. My son was a college student six months away from graduating and was murdered. There has been children that are athletes who have been killed. Children that had a great future ahead of them and they were killed. So understand, your child no matter how gifted or talented he or she may be can be killed. Stop with the judgements because you to shall be judged. 

The spirit of jealousy must be cast out for people to serve God fully with the gifts He has placed inside them. Get out of the way with that spirit of jealousy and envy. Thank the Lord for the gift he has given you. Everyone in the body of Christ is needed. All parts are needed for the ministry to be successful. Period point blank. If you don’t like it take it up with God. God require us to get our houses in order especially His house. Stop gendering the move of God because your of jealousy. We are all needed and we all apart of one body and that is the body of Christ (.)

A womanizer is one of the worst humans God created. Would you like to know why? It’s because A WOMAM CARRIED YOU IN HER WOMB FOR NINE MONTHS AND GAVE BIRTH/LIFE TO YOU. How can you disrespect a human that carries another life inside her body. Especially, if you have children of your own and she carried your children inside her body and gave them life. Womanizer don’t care about any woman on God green earth. They don’t care about the mother of their children. My Lord, she had your children and you treat her like trash. I truly pray for all the women who have been a victim to these type of men especially those of you who have a child/children with him.