I Need You Lord

Lord I need you

While I’m encouraging others I need encouragement from you. I need strength. This year is hard for me. Now I understand why you have me sitting. I have been moving and not dealing with my emotions about my mother and Sidney. I was trying to stay moving no stop. Working overtime and staying active in church not to deal with them departing from this earth. Truth is I never wanted to feel this pain. It hurts Lord! It hurts! It hurts! Thank you for the grace. Your grace is truly sufficient. Sharing my testimony helps. However, I truly have to deal with truth. My son Sidney was murdered and my mother was hopeless in pain and ready to die. I was angry at my mom for leaving us and giving up. But, now I realize I had no idea how much pain she was truly in. Reading her journal I found out she couldn’t accept Sidney had died. Lord help me.