What I have learned about people since my son was murdered.

Allow me to tell you my story. You have heard enough from people trying to coverup lies. Now here’s the truth. 

Hello 👋,

I hope you all are enjoying your day thus far. This is the day that the Lord has made, and we shall rejoice and be glad in it.

Well, beautiful people allow me to share my testimony with you all. All my life up until my son Sidney Maurice Jackson Jr was murdered at the age of 19: I was surrounded by people. (Friends, family, boyfriend, secret enemies) However, once my son was murdered, I found out that the people I had been surrounded by and trusted all those years were secretly against me and my family. They smiled in our faces, can to cookouts and birthday party’s. When I was going to the club and drinking, well they went to the club with me and we had drinks together. 

But once my son Sidney was murdered after everyone’s came around to be bossy and ask questions. To see if I knew about how he was living outside my home. And they realized I didn’t know about how he was living. I knew about him going to college and working but I didn’t know about him selling marijuana. Now, make no mistake only one person mentioned him selling marijuana and when I asked my son and he denied it. So, as any mother would tell a child who she felt was lying to her. I responded, don’t sell drugs where you lay your head that is how people get robbed and killed. I told him with him having a baby on the way he was putting all their lives in danger of what I heard was true. I warned him that if what I heard was true he needed to stop and just get a better job. But yet my son lied to me. He denied that he was selling marijuana. And the fact he hadn’t lived in my home in over six months and he was staying with his baby momma and her mom, well it is what it is.

However, once he was murdered everyone came to me talking about how he was selling marijuana. I mean his cousins, his uncle, his daddy, I mean everyone who kept their mouths shut while he was alive. So, it’s truly amazing how people can be around you and know that you are going down the wrong path. A deadly path and will keep their mouths shut. They will allow you to die and then speak up after you are dead and gone. But, they will party with you, smoke with you, ride with you, sleep with you. Tell you they live you and know that you are on the road to death. But as long as they are benefiting from your careless and reckless behavior they say absolutely nothing. My God from Zion help me with this….

People of God, I’m sharing this with you to let you know just because they are around, does not mean that they care. People are opportunist and uses of people who have a giving heart. After his death no one had anything bad to say when they spoke about him selling marijuana. They talked about how he chilled with them and smoked. So, I honestly don’t believe they missed him. They missed the fact that he gave them the hook up. Because at the end of the day people love when they can smoke for free. People love when they can party for free. 

After his funeral no one came around or called. No, I know it’s because of their own guilt. People knew Sidney would listen to me. If one of his family members including my daughter would have told me, he would not have been able to deny it and I would have been able to seriously sit him down and talk to him. The fact that the person who told me wasn’t of blood relation, I couldn’t push as hard. However, I have forgiven everyone because they are dealing with their own regrets. I’m not upset with anyone. My mother and I got back in good standing before she died so I’m good. But, for those of you who knew and said nothing. Well, I cannot join your pity party because I didn’t know. I didn’t have concrete facts. I didn’t have any evidence. But, I’m grateful that he knew Jesus. That’s it that’s all. He knew Jesus! He was saved! He repented again before he died! I know God has him! And I’m at peace with that. 

Many of you have lost loved ones and I’m telling you that the people named on the obituary and in the receiving of friends book know something. There should be more solved murders. Do, your part and find out who killed your loved one. 

And if you know you couldn’t change the outcome of your loved ones death. Forgive yourself! It’s not your fault! You didn’t know! Stop feeling guilty! 

P.S. There are some people around you that are not always for you. They are waiting on you to either die or lose everything. Know your circle. 

Unapologetically,

Rosin Akinola